The Silence

I sit in the middle of my room floor staring at the ceiling. I feel numb yet a rush of heat travels through my vain. I feel as though I am one with the ground and slowly sinking beneath my carpet floor. A breeze of cold air blows against my body and gives me goosebumps. I curl up into a ball and roll side ways to hold my knees against my chest. Warm tears roll down my eyes and over my nose. Heart is now racing faster then a speeding train. I close my eyes as memories flash through my eye lids and haunt me like a horror movie. I try to blank out my thoughts and concentrate on the texture of my carpet by feeling the rough bumps and making shapes with my fingers. The blockage didn't last for long until i started thinking about my present and how miserable my life has become. I try to look at the positive things but the darkness fills my mind with misery. Tears continue to drop down and I don't bother to wipe them. Cold chills go down my body and I start to wonder if i am still alive....
To be continued..